Friday, 02 January 2009
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Sometimes I'm Jealous of White People
Jealous isn't the right word, but I am jealous of white people's hair. I have to fry mine to get it to look like that! Other than the texture, I like my hair because it turns blonde in the summer because the ends get really gold.
I'm actually only half black, but it bugs me when people call me black than when they call me white. In reality, I'm Mulatto.
I hate to admit (even though it's hard) that I try to make myself more "white." I dress really preppy. In middle school, I would only buy clothes from A&F, Hollister, or American Eagle. That was just a phase though; all of their clothes look the same, so I've moved on to more mature stores.Apparently I talk really girly, like Paris Hilton. I can promise you... I DON'T try to sound like that and I have zero voice control. I can't sing and I can't whisper. But to me, that is better than sounding like I'm straight out of the hood.
The worst thing I've ever done was change my eye color. I have 20/20 vision, but I've wasted a good $100 on green non-prescription contacts just because I think they're prettier than my natural color. I guess some black people, like Tyra Banks and Rihanna, have naturally green eyes, but that's not common. Have you noticed how most "black" celebrities have a very light complexion and light eyes?
There are racists out there, too. My best friend's Grandma is the worst racist I've ever met. This lady is so sweet to my face, but behind my back she tells my friend Courtney stuff that even makes her cringe.
"How can anyone make something so hideous? Marrying outside of your race is the most disgusting thing you can do!"
How can she not grow out of that attitude and move on? Maybe you can't teach an old dog new tricks. However, America has come such a long way, so I give everyone credit for bridging the gap and making it acceptable to be of color.
My school isn't racist, but its definitely stereotypical, so I get frustrated when people say, "You are so ghetto!" because I am not on the inside and in my opinion, I don't even look ghetto on the outside.
Yet, the most annoying question has to be, "What are you?" I know what they mean, but I think it's the rudest thing to ask that. Does it really matter what I am? It shouldn't change the way you think about me, so just drop it. Usually I answer by saying I'm half black and half white, even though most white people will ignore that and call me black, and most black people will ignore it and call me white-washed. Sometimes I really just can't stand it and I tell them I'm Asian just to keep them wondering.
Do you ever envy features or characteristics of other ethnicities? How much do questions of ethnicity come into play in your everyday interactions?
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Nope, I love the way I look -- never wished I was white. Which is amazing, considering I grew up in a predominantly caucasian neighborhood/area/school, and it seems like so many kiddies who do tend to try to be more "white" to "fit in" or w/e b.s...
It really frustrates me that lots of non-caucasian people don't embrace their own ethnicity's looks. It's like, wtf. You're YOUR culture. You're not "supposed" to be caucasian just cause you don't live in your "native" country, you're not SUPPOSED have blonde hair, blue eyes blahblah. It really does kill me when people do stuff to "be more white." Really, wtf? What's wrong with you? Oh I know. You're been brainwashed by euro-centricity. Sad...
reason(s)Disclaimer, not hatin on non-white people that dye their hair blond, or monolids that use eyelid glue to acheive folds, etcetc because they simply like how it looks. BUT i will be hatin if these peoples'
for doing all that is "to look more white". That's just stupid.
//Buuut// I'm not gonna lie. One caucasian features I'm envious of is different colored eyes
All eye-colors are beautiful, but I would love to have green eyes *-*
Listen... I have read the first three sections of your blog and stopped reading. Does it matter if people call you white and then black? You are both of them, or not? And I don't understand why 'mulatto' is better than white or black... You're human. Is that not important?
I just don't get what the big deal about race is. I am so fed up with it because I am confronted with it every single day in my country. I am not mad at you, but the whole topic just enrage me.
Power to you and do what makes you happy.
i guess u don't really wanna know my opinions as i am 'yellow,' 'not white'. But i still wanna say somthing.
I hate racial discrimination. You get to love yourself. Just like what i do, i have never even hated my yellow skin ,black hair or black eyeballs as i think they are mine, a part of mine. I have not wanted any 'white's things' either coz i love myself. I love everything my parents have given me.
I live, study, and work in a university town with a LOT of international students and minorities, and I think in most cases, there's fairly open discussion about questions of ethnicity.
As for features - I'm really fair, like British/French/German mixed fair, so it would be nice to have darker skin, if only so I don't fry so fast.
Hey, Im half black too. But i noticed you talked alot about your hair, WAKE UP baby! if someone likes you less beacuse of your Hair?! what kind of person is that? what kind of FRIEND is that.
People have walked up to me, asking me if im Biracial, or something and they tell me how my skin color is so pretty and their practiacally jealous of it. i can understand why that may offend you when someone asks that, but honestly, thats the time to be proud of what you are. To say, yea! im half black AND half white. you should be proud, beacuse mixed races sometimes really ARE prettier. its like your one of a kind (: so dont feel bad. be proud of yourself.
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aww. I really hate the question, "What are you?" too. I get it a lot since for whatever reason, I look hispanic eventhough I'm half-asian, half-white. I usually just say asian, and people usually go with it but the worst commently I got back before was "you're lying you f***ing wet-back". A least I wasn't the only one pissed at that... I sure a bunch of people beat him up after school that day. (you should never say anything racist at a school where white people are a minority)
Yes! I'm Asian, I'm okay with it, but I sometimes wish I were a little more than that. My mom and grandma don't exactly look like Chinese for reasons unknown, thus I don't look too Chinese too, and I like that.
Although I already always have eyes and hair slightly browner than other Asians and features slightly more prominent too, I sometimes wish I were blonde with blue eyes, and my forehead and cheekbones and jawline and nose protrude just a little bit more (but not till the extent that I look like my facial bones overgrown). I don't know, I just think I'd look pretty(-er than I already am).
I embrace my roots, but I adore the features of Caucasians (all the colours!), therefore I wish I were mixed: half white, half Asian. I think people of multiple ethnicities look exotic--they have the best of both (or more) worlds! They get the best features from all the ethnicities in their blood! So, be proud of yourself!
i think it's important to not think in terms of race because it is such a diluted term that just groups all sorts of people together that have such different and diverse cultures. while i think race shouldn't matter in our day to day interactions with people i do think that cultural backgrounds and heritages are important because those are the things that shape us and make us individuals. whether or not we try to break free from our biological history we still carry around customs and traditions based on the regions that we hail from - even though in america all that tends to be blurred.
i just think that its important to appreciate the history of your culture without focusing so much on the differences and characterizations of race and more so on the individual ways in which we adapt to our past and present.
Bill of Rights for Racially Mixed People by Maria Root:
I HAVE THE RIGHT…
Not to justify my existence in this world.
Not to keep the races separate within me.
Not to be responsible for people’s discomfort with my physical ambiguity.
Not to justify my ethnic legitimacy.
I HAVE THE RIGHT…
To identify myself differently than strangers expect me to identify.
To identify myself differently from how my parents identify me.
To identify myself differently from my brothers and sisters.
To identify myself differently in different situations.
I HAVE THE RIGHT…
To create a vocabulary to communicate about being multiracial.
To change my identity over my lifetime — and more than once.
To have loyalties and identification with more than one group of people.
To freely choose whom I befriend and love.
(I actually think this should be printed and handed out to every person who is mixed race)
"Yet, the most annoying question has to be, "What are you?"I know what they mean, but I think it's the rudest thing to ask that."
Why's it rude? Wouldn't you be more offended if they assumed you were something else (e.g. South/Central American, Middle-Eastern)?
In answer to one of your questions:
I wish I was Chinese.
I'm completely absorbed by Hong Kong.
Most of my friends are from Hong Kong, I watch primarily Hong Kong movies, via my friends; what's popular in Hong Kong is recognised by me as being popular. I'm also really into Chinese history & culture.
The funny thing is not that I'm white, but that I've never been to Hong Kong, or China for that matter.
White people aren't that great, you know.
We go red when we're hot, cold, embarrassed, excited, etc., etc..
We also seem to have more cases of mental disabilities than any other race of people in the world.. For example, I've never seen a black person with down's syndrome.
People need to get over the fact that there are other races, but we're all the same.
I just don't feel sorry for you. Sorry if I came off improper. I've just lost it, if you know what I mean...
Look, man, I'm a minority too. I just don't get anything for it besides hate in the form of love.
I want to weld. Its my heart's desire.
i think there's a difference between knowing you ought to be okay with yourself and actually being able to do it. i'm asian, which isn't all that rare/special, but i grew up in an all white area and hated myself until i found other asians and eventually accepted that i was a certain race and it was completely normal for me to be such. and while you're "told" by tv, oprah, social humanism that you ought to love yourself, its difficult when people are yelling racial slurs at you.
to be honest im really jealous of anyone mulatto. i live in a really urban city. providence, rhode island. so ive seen and gotten to know people of all races, backgrounds, religions, etc. and i've got so many mixed family members. ive really enjoyed living in a city like mine where it is more of the majority to have at least some color. anyway back to the point of my post, i def wish i were mulatto. they are so good looking and possess the best features of any race. with wide eyes, thick yet not nappy hair, and full lips. and mulatto babies are the CUTEST! also usually their bodies grow to be really well proportioned. i'm full blooded italian, and though i love my culture, i wish i had more to me.
I've never thought about the whole "What are you?" thing. It's just something white people ask. White people like to talk about ethnicity. It sets us apart from each other in a good way, I always thought.
I am Itialian, Black, Amerindian and Chinese. People ask all the time what I am. Half Indian (Indian), Morocco, Puerto Rican, Mixed with I don't know what.....It can be very annoying but at the same time we mixed folks needs to be proud. We represent different cultures. Not to be biased but, we come out very exotic looking with unique features.
People are attractive in different ways, I try to be satisfied with myself. Though, being Asian, I'm jealous of caucasians' prominent facial features and body bone structure....
Aww...
Well, my eyes are naturally lime green but i'm pure white. My hair is also naturally red. And trust me, it's not always easy being a redhead lol.
Just embrace who you are..
And Tyra Banks and Rihanna wear colored contacts, but they look real.
Rock your brown eyes! Believe me, colored contacts rarely ever look natural unless you're a celebrity and can afford the super expensive ones.
I'm jealous of Asians being so smart! But let's not open up THAT stereotype.
And I'm also jealous of skinny people.
I don't know why you're envious of white people, because if your picture is anything to go by you are stunning. Other people are probably envious of your beauty and they have good cause to be. You said you weren't comfortable with how some other people view you, well you shouldn't care what they think because if they think you are anything below them, they're not worth your discomfort.
I'm asian and proud of my ethnicity, I hold my head high and try not to let people bother me. Once, my dad needed to fill out a questionnaire and there was the question about what ethnic group he was from, he got a bit annoyed and ticked everything. His actions were right in way because it doesnt matter what ethnic group anyone is from, because we're all humans.
I once envied the pale skin of white people, but that was years ago and I've learned to like myself for who I am. I dont envy other ethnic groups anymore, I like my tanned skin and my dark hair and eyes.
My advice to you would be to love yourself for who you are. ^_~
i'm not going to lie. sometimes, i'm incredibly jealous of white people. when i was a little girl, all i wanted was red hair and green eyes. have you noticed that many black girls have red in their hair? it's a common phenomenon. but green eyes aren't that common and they're so gorgeous...
but it takes so much time to straighten my hair, etc. that i just end up wearing it in braids half the time. you're lucky that you're mulatto because your texture is a little easier to work with than pure African black hair like mine.
i also get frustrated when people call me ghetto when i can afford many things that others cannot. i speak proper english, i dress sutiably, and shop at the normal mall store...yet i'm still called ghetto? it's a phenomenon that i will never understand.
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@Eyes_as_Red@xanga - Your blue eyes and blond hair can be inherited from the mongols, since they were mixed together a long time ago with a certain germanic group that wondered east. I've seen it many times before. Genetic throwbacks like that doesnt happen very often. But when they do, the result is often amasing.
I'm mixed and have always loved it. Best of both worlds, although I have other ethnic backgrounds as well. Never been jealous of white people or black people. I have always been happy the way I was born. My real point in this is that the use of the word "mulatto" offends me more than anyone asking me, What are you". It means mule. Don't call me that, please...