Nicole Scherzinger, the former lead singer of the Pussycat Dolls, is opening up about her decade-long battle with bulimia in an upcoming episode of VH1′s “Behind the Music”. She fought the disease during her time as a member of the super popular girl group.
“I did it every day for, like, years,” she said. “Every time I had a second to be alone, I was doing something to myself. You get, like, blisters on your hands or scars on your hands, and I’d try to hide those. I think the girls could tell.”
The expectation to be sexy in a group like the Pussycat Dolls definitely had an impact on Scherzinger’s body image. The Dolls frequently wore revealing clothing while performing and their bodies were expected to be in tip-top shape.
“I wasn’t comfortable with my body,” she revealed. “I just hated myself. I really was so disgusted with myself and so embarrassed. I felt so alone. I was in a group, and I never felt so alone in my life.”
She obviously has trouble talking about it, so it shows a lot of courage to for her to reveal her secret. “It’s embarrassing. I never spoke about it. Like I said, I never want to play a victim, and I never wanted my family to hear about things from me because I think it would break their heart, you know. I guess it was like my addiction, right? I never did drugs, but kinda doing things to myself was my addiction,” she said. “It’s like when I got offstage, I was on this high, and I’d come back to my room and I’d be alone, so I would just do things. My bulimia was my addiction; hurting myself was my addiction.”
I think it’s wonderful that Scherzinger is coming forward and talking about her battle with bulimia. It shows people that nobody, even someone as beautiful as her, is immune to the disease. I think she has the power and influence to help a lot of young girls who are experiencing the same thing that she did, and I hope her coming forward is going to do a lot of good.
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