I used to think it was just because my period, but I’m scared I’m slipping into depression. I feel moody a lot and am guilty of lashing out at friends I love at times. Even though I have a lot to feel happy about, I keep feeling trapped, alone, and really crummy. I don’t want to scare anyone, though, about looking for a therapist. Just how I even start to do that? I don’t make alot of money at my retail job and don’t know how I can afford it but I think its important. What should I do?
I’m so sorry you’re going through this — it must be such a difficult time for you. I recognized my depression about a year and a half ago, though I had probably been experiencing various symptoms for at least a couple of years prior.
If you are really interested in finding a therapist, GoodTherapy and HelpPro Therapist Finder both provide a national directory of therapists. Sometimes, especially if you’re a student, you can work out a sliding pay scale. Also, if you’re a student, most colleges offer some sort of counseling for free.
When I first realized that my life felt too much like a Zoloft commercial, I brought up my symptoms during my well woman exam with my lady-doctor. These exams are covered by most insurances, so you don’t have to pay anything. While you’re making sure that you’re physically healthy, you can chat with your doctor about your mental and emotional health and he or she may be able to give you some resources or recommend medicine. Remember that when you take an anti-depressant, there is a small chance that the medicine will worsen your depression. This happened to me with the first anti-depressant I tried, but I quickly got off and tried something else that has worked for me for over a year. Medicine affects everyone differently, so do some research on your own and talk to a professional.
Aside from medical options, there are some other things that you can do to cope with your feelings. First, having a strong support system can be really helpful during such a confusing time. You probably feel out of control of your emotions and talking to someone about them might help you sort them out. If you need someone to listen without giving their input, don’t be afraid to say that. Sometimes, validation is all you need.
The other thing I advise is to make sure you’re taking care of yourself. If you aren’t getting enough to eat and plenty of sleep, the rest of your body will weaken. If you’re feeling especially down, throw on a season of 30 Rock, listen to your favorite music or go on a bike ride. It can be hard to stay motivated when you’re depressed, but often times, doing nothing only makes you feel worse.My last bit of wisdom about depression is that you will want to sleep like you are in a coma. My boyfriend used to complain all the time that I sleep too much, but he realized that I can’t help it. Some anti-depressants cause drowsiness, which I think is totally unfair because I could already sleep all day if I wanted to. Don’t be afraid of taking naps when you’re tired, but it’s so important to stay active when you can.
How do other readers cope with depression? Is there anything else you’d recommend this Lovely do to feel better?
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Excellent response to a cry for help. Well written.
daisy / 506 posts
@Shadowrunner81@xanga - Agreed! Nicely done, Nicole.
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You can talk to a General Practitioner about symptoms, but they can only diagnose so much. The best thing to do is to seek therapy, which unfortunately is expensive. I go through depression off and on myself. I went through a whole summer just being depressed and angry at all times. I lashed out, hated everyone and everything, and found it extremely hard to just feel anything other than anger and depression. When I tried to figure out where it was coming from, I realized that there are a lot of factors in my life that I just need to be a certain way in order to control my emotions. One of the biggest issues in the house I lived in, at the time, was cleanliness. I simply cannot be in a dirty environment and who actually enjoys picking up after six roommates every single day? The state of my living situation made me miserable, even more than my job did, which was also retail and I just don’t have the temperament for retail jobs. My relationship was a mess because my boyfriend(now ex) was lazy and his lack of any logic drove me nuts. In order to fix my life a bit, I had to make changes. I moved out, I broke up with my boyfriend at the time, and got a better job. All of these changes lessened my depression, but it still comes around completely out of nowhere sometimes.
Currently, I’m trying to find a medication that will help with my ADD and these depressive episodes. I was talking to my general practitioner, but I realized after a couple of months that she is unable to give me the help I really need. Who I really need to talk to is a therapist. If there is an underlying reason for your depression or maybe a mental illness that your depression stems from, a therapist will be able to help you more. I actually just put in the application for better insurance that will cover that sort of treatment. Maybe you could look into insurance plans, go through your average monthly costs and see if you can afford it through insurance. Either way, I feel one of the first steps should be to analyze your life and see if there are any changes you can make that will pick your mood up, even if it’s only a slight difference, it still helps.
peony / 1 posts
I’m currently on an anti-depressant as I just simply get moody a lot and really have a bigger problem around my period. I spoke to my PMS extremities to my gyno and she’s the one that actually gave me an anti-depressant. It’s a low dose and just enough to even out my moodiness.
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Great advice!
I would suggest talking to a therapist and using the resources mentioned in this blog. If you find that this does not help, then you can always see your MD about an anti-depressant. Mine prescribed the lowest dosage for my depression and anxiety and it worked amazingly.
Also, I would advise you to make sure that you’re not experiencing any hormonal imbalances that could be causing this; I recently found out that this is what has been happening to me, and hopefully after they treat this, I won’t need the anti-depressant anymore.
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I wouldn’t add anything to what was already said here, really. I think the only thing I would say is that if your GP thinks it is a problem, you should get a referral for a psychiatrist to get a better diagnosis than just depression. It helps to know when you do decide to go to therapy.
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omg what a cute pug, i got two. anyway, dealing with depression, the only way i know how to deal with depression is doing things out of the box, things you’ve never done before and experience new things. like traveling or etc. and it is a hormonal imbalance and there are ways of correcting it, herbally as well.
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Talk to a psychologist. Some times all you need is to spill everything you’re feeling and thinking to a third party. It really helped me. If it’s more serious they might recommend you to a psychiatrist, but I’d start with a psychologist and see how that goes. You’d be surprised how easy it is to talk and talk once you sit with one.
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I never really dealt with depression until after my car accident left me in a wheel chair and I lost my first son, not to mention a bunch of family drama in between. At first I assumed it was mostly the medication I was taking at the time and obvious greiving for my lost son, I told my doctor how much it hurt just to breath. She prescribed me Cymbalta and it helped a whole lot since I never got the chance to talk with a therapist at that time. After my insurance ran out, so did the medication and my anxiety came over me hard and my depression was so bad that I couldn’t even get ready for work or school without crying. My man was a big help for me, always trying to comfort me and make me feel better but there were days that even he couldn’t reach me. I’m sure I’m going to get a whole bunch of people telling me not to say this BUT marijuana has actually been my main source of medication. It’s helped keep my anxiety down and my depression minimal. I’ve never been a smoker and never even tried it before my car accident but a friend of mine was trying to help me during one of my breakdowns and I had my first hit. I definitely have a lot more better days than I used to. I’m not saying get stoned off your ass or nothing but it couldn’t hurt. Plus its a lot cheaper than most medications and in some places/cases easier to get a hold of….just throwing it out there.