Growing up, I was always attracted to the darker side of life. But not in the “black lipstick and bondage pants” way of many peers (I wasn’t cool enough for that). I simply loved reading about unconventional, morbid topics. In second grade I couldn’t get enough information on the Holocaust. In fifth grade R.L. Stine’s Fear Street books (which were incredibly violent for the YA genre) were most of what I read. From high school onward, I would stop reading classics to pick up true crime books I had already consumed several times over. It’s no wonder my poor mother eventually stopped asking about what I was reading, especially since serial killers became my main nonfiction interest.
I’d like to clarify that I don’t revel in the tragedy that stems from murderers; it’s the mystery behind the culprits. What makes someone commit such heinous acts? How can anyone even consider being so brutal to another human? I read these stories over and over to try and make sense of something I’ll never understand. Not having closure doesn’t sit well with me.
I also love a good mystery, and cases of uncaught killers are my “favorite” (for lack of a better term). While I have no expectations of solving any murders, it’s still intriguing to watch others perform mental gymnastics to try and piece together clues. (If you were wondering, the Zodiac case is the most interesting one to me for that reason.)
Coming down to it, I’m simply interested in the hows and whys of these crimes. No story is too gory, no murder theory too improbable. And while it’s morbid, I know I’m not alone. If I were, there wouldn’t be an entire site dedicated to murders (CrimeLibrary.com), and 48 Hours Mystery would cease to exist.
The reasons for others’ interest in crime isn’t that important to me, but I feel confident that most people have the same questions and desire for closure that I do. Either way, I know that I’ll probably find myself thumbing through my copy of The Cases That Haunt Us tonight, whether that’s weird or not.
Do you have any interest in murderers/serial killers? Do you think that people who do are odd?