There are plenty of difficult things to do in life. (Including typing with your left elbow raised up high because your dog decided to curl up under your arm to sleep). I find that a few things for me are extremely difficult.
1. Letting go. Especially of love, but of lots of things. Arguments, people, unnecessary emotion, inanimate objects and possessions. I’ve recently realized that I get in my own way of things like this, because I frequently put myself back in a position to hold on to things and people that I should have long since let go of. Take my ex for instance. We dated officially for five months and we were unofficially seeing each other for another seven. Being that I clung to him for so long (even after it became obvious to me that he was never going to love me the way it had seemed he used to) I should have let go. But I caused myself tons of extra unnecessary pain instead.
2. Not sticking up for myself when I feel like I haven’t done anything wrong. There are times when I am accused of something, get yelled at for something, and there was nothing to warrant the behavior aimed at me. If I feel that I haven’t done anything to deserve the way I have been treated, I will stick up for myself and I will speak my mind. It takes a lot of courage to do so, but I don’t lack in that.
3. Calling people ‘friends’. I have a hard time letting people in past a certain point. I also will refuse to call you friend if I frequently have no trouble helping you, but you won’t help me; similarly I refuse to call you friend if you’re not comfortable enough to tell me no. If you can’t, then why call me a friend? That’s something a friend respects and understands, so if you can’t see me that way, then we’re clearly not ‘friends’. I frequently tell people no and vice-versa, and my friends and I think no less of each other.
4. Being anything less than brutally honest. I have trouble sugar coating my words. I feel like I’m being dishonest when I do things like that, and it sits the wrong way with me. (An example: sometimes when people talk, I have trouble not telling them how stupid they sound).
What do you find difficult about life Lovelies?