Guest blog submitted by captureacloud
You know, ever since I turned eighteen, I realize I don’t really look like my age. Yeah, yeah, that might come in later, but when it comes to the opposite sex, it doesn’t help when every guy you meet thinks you’re twelve or younger. Crooked front teeth? Nearly blind with nearly broken glasses? Freckles and frizzy hair? Less than five feet tall? I’m not overweight in the slightest, but I’m a little soft for my size. None of it helps! It really doesn’t!
I’m trying to change that a little –
I got a little money from Christmas and I want to get a new haircut, maybe some new hair dye (I tried dark purple last year and it looked really good with the new haircut I had). I can dress a little nicer, that sort of thing. The biggest obstacle is finances, however, because I am on a very limited budget that only comes around once a year.
I plan to change that over summer with my first job (I would have gotten one sooner, but transportation and time issues plus school workload prevent that), but that’s six months away. I can’t ask my mother for help because finances aren’t that great for the family, so I rarely can ask for anything that’s not strictly necessary. Generic shampoos are normal; hairspray and other hair products we have are so old that Dolly Parton might have used them before she had transplants.
When I asked my mother to use my money for a haircut and eyebrow wax, she gave me a look like I was stupid and replied, “Are you really sure you want to do that?”
Basically, she said no. Regardless of my age, if she can’t drive me to the salon, I can’t really do anything, and none of my friends live close to where I do (oh, and I can’t drive yet because of car troubles).
People keep telling me looks don’t count, but I hardly believe them. The people I was in a relationship with didn’t feel physically attracted to me and that’s incredibly…well, not good. Plus, two of them dumped me for other boys. My conclusion: I should try to look more like a girl, instead of wearing the hoodies and jeans I normally wear.
So, what do I do? I’m not particularly looking for a relationship right now, but I want to feel attractive in this coming year since I’ll be going to college in the fall. I want to feel my age and look my age. What can I do on low budget?
A note — about the front teeth — yeah, we’re too poor to afford a dentist. I can’t change that yet, but hopefully we can soon… :[